TMI – I started my period on March first. That’s not what I had in mind when I prayed for things to “get back to normal” but at least we know we’re fertile again. Twice we didn’t know that. Twice we had another baby. Twice I was on the Pill even. I’m still on the Pill, but I don’t trust it. But it feels like the “responsible” thing to do so we don’t end up with a herd of punks. Boy punks. Cute boy punks.
The pill brings out my evil twin at times. I can feel it in my veins the most. It’s scary. If we could afford the snip for either of us, we would probably go through with it. Alas, having $11,500 in deductibles means it probably ain’t gonna happen in any given year. Unless it is a terrible year. IUD’s aren’t covered for me, either, and that’s almost as expensive as the snips. So, we’re preventing more proactively than we have in the past.
I did really well last week in memorizing Proverbs 17:22 — don’t quote me on it but it goes something like this — A merry heart does good like a medicine but a broken spirit dries up the bones. It’s been funny telling the oldest boy that his bones are gonna dry up when he’s throwing a tantrum. Totally caught him off guard. We also go looking for our happy hearts. Where did we leave it this time? Is it in the van? Should we all go out to the van and help you look for your happy heart? Maybe it’s in your bed? Under your pillow? Why don’t you put your head on your pillow and see if you can hear it? I cringed, though, when Oldest told me that my happy heart was in my tummy so I needed to eat to feed it and find it. I don’t want to start with the whole emotional eating bit. I never ate emotionally until recently, but I’m also blaming that on the pill. Nursing doesn’t help any either with the HUNGER. Maybe the pill makes me hungry too?
This week’s memory verse for me (us) is Proverbs 15:13 … lemme look it up … this is a big one for me because I’ve often gotten the order mixed up, thinking that in smiling, I would become happy. Nope, it’s the other way around:
A happy heart makes the face cheerful,
but heartache crushes the spirit.
(New International Version)
And don’t you know what a crushed spirit leads to? Dry bones! This goes in hand with figuring out if someone even has a happy heart to start with. I’ve often asked Oldest if the characters in his books are happy or sad or tired or angry or confused or dizzy or fill-in-the-blank-emotion. It was only natural to ask him how he knew if Mommy had a happy heart or not. He knew instantly that you tell by a smile. I asked him to show me his happy heart once after he got into trouble and sat in time-out and he had the cutest smile ever. I love that boy. SO, a happy heart makes the face cheerful. This is my attempt to smile more. See? It’s in the Bible! I hardly ever – used to – smile. It’s becoming easier.
Oh! I have some pictures to share. I’m thinking about building a portfolio and starting a business in the next few years. Not a serious business. Just for some spending cash. I’m thinking my “focus area” would be casual events. That seems to be what I do best. Children is too specific as I often shoot my church. Heh. Shoot my church.
This is L. She turned four. Check out that cake! It was chocolate cake. Delicious!




Isn’t she just darling?
